dear. mr. robert downey jr.

they say to never meet your heroes. you are kind of my hero, I think. I mean I like the movies that you have been in, well, the majority of them. you are a very handsome man, who has a hilarious sense of hilarity. I admire the fact that you made it through life even though you did drugs and went to rehab you were in prison for a minute, now you are clean and a very successful actor.

so I would like to say you are my hero, but I really would like to meet you so you kind of aren't my hero at the same time. maybe I just like you because you are attractive. even though you are old, like ten years younger than my parents old. no offense mom and dad, I love you, thanks for the 21 years of support.

so mr. robert downey. jr. yes, you have to have the suffix after your name or else you might just be regular mr. robert downey, that just makes you sound like toilet paper. anyway, I just wanted to say that I think you're kinda cool and might be hero worthy, like ironman or something. I'm just worried that on the off chance I run into you in the streets of bountiful that you might be a jerk, stuck-up like a cheerleader, or "too good for other humans". since I fall under the category of "human" unlike the doctor, then you might be too good for me.

I guess I just want to say is you are kind of cool, I guess, if you are into that sort of thing.

from,

kimberly reeder

and the cards all fold.

october has been a month of all emotions. yep.

demons - imagine dragons that's the theme for this month.

When the days are cold
And the cards all fold
And the saints we see
Are all made of gold

When your dreams all fail
And the ones we hail
Are the worst of all
And the blood’s run stale

I want to hide the truth
I want to shelter you
But with the beast inside
There’s nowhere we can hide

No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide

When the curtain’s call
Is the last of all
When the lights fade out
All the sinners crawl

So they dug your grave
And the masquerade
Will come calling out
At the mess you made

Don’t want to let you down
But I am hell bound
Though this is all for you
Don’t want to hide the truth

No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide

They say it's what you make
I say it's up to fate
It's woven in my soul
I need to let you go

Your eyes, they shine so bright
I want to save their light
I can't escape this now
Unless you show me how

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide

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cool story bro. 'nuff said.  

the mind fried, the heart broken, the cross-roads confused.

Heavenly Father has an interesting plan for all of his children.  I cannot imagine the path that is meant for me, which is fine. no one knows what is to come of the future, we may plan all that we like, but it all comes down to the man who loves us enough to give us trials.

"and once the storm is over you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm is about." haruki murakami

all I know is that He loves me and I love Him.

perfect couple. instagrammed.

it's fine, I just fell into the norm of popularity. it was either get engaged or get instagram, those seem to be the only two things going on nowadays on the fb, so I chose the lesser of the two commitments.  

I have always had commitment problems, it all started with the piano, it lasted six months, then we broke up. I miss that relationship, it was a good learning experience, I still go back to it every once in a while, but nothing too serious. I love pulling up the bench and following a youtube piano tutorial, or plunking out a hymn, or a violin song that I know by memory. but that's where my true heart lies, with the violin. I need to stop leading the piano on.  

getting on the fb today I now have seven more friends engaged. it may seem like a lot. it is. first off I want to say, congratulations and every other cliché sentiment. back to my new relationship, its fun and refreshing and I get to flaunt it to the world on fb, but I don't feel as cheesy as those who are flaunting the engagements with all the new events like "guess who's tying the knot" or "another wedding address event" or "annoying+whipped=forever!!!"

let me give you a little run down of my new beau's past. instagram is a free photo-sharing program and social network that was launched in October 2010. The service enables users to take a photo, apply a digital filter to it, and then share it with other instagram users they are connected to on the social network as well as on a variety of social networking services. insta(nickname) has over 100 million register users, according to wikipedia. as you can tell insta is the popular/pretty one. 

the picture of nothing that gets "heart liked"

you have the typical
duck face (we added hairy moustaches)
picture with a filter.

and the semi-cute picture with a rounded border to make
look ever more adorable. 

over all I kinda like insta. 

dark to light.

September has been a month of ups and downs.  I can't complain though. Heavenly father loves me and He has shown me more times this month then I ever expected.

There was a very strong darkness that came over me a week ago. I over came it with the help of my Savior, my Father in Heaven, and my constant companion the Holy Ghost.  Of course I will never be able to express how wonderful my family is.

I am doing so well now, my happiness escalates more and more every day.

September theme is Hello, by Evanescence. It's beautiful.

I want a tank.

"I want a tank."
"Well then, why don't you get one?"
"Because they cost several million dollars, not including floormats. I don't have that kind of money"
"Now wait a second, you're a consumer.  You have credit cards, right?"
"Yes, but how am I going to pay the credit card company?  They'll come after me."
"Don't be silly, you have a tank"

for july there can be no judgement, I don't care who you are, but the the theme is - Call Me Maybe....
I know, I know strange, or ridiculous, but I needed pure fun for july and that was it. I fought it as much as I could, but I listened to it over and over and over.

august I think I can redeem myself a little bit, but the theme is Chasing the Sun. The beginning lyrics explain my new relationship, plus the upbeatness of the song just keeps the summer vibes flowing.

these "business cards" came in the mail I don't remember ordering them.