haunted boy. who taunts me.

there is a boy who has haunted my dreams since I was little. he shows up unexpectedly and it feels like he is taunting me, not wanting me to have complete happiness without him. last night he was there again, mischievous as ever. he sabotages my views on the feelings I think I have. he is ruthless, possibly because my mind is his home. he has full reign during the long hours of the night. the most infuriating part is when I am so incandescently happy he shows up and reminds me that until I find him in reality my happiness will suffer. he knows who is designed for me and will not allow any deviation.